Pad across the frigid tile
in your bare feet and run a glass of water.
The lit up numbers on the microwave
say it's still Christmas Eve for twenty minutes longer.
A week back home in Idaho
amid cousins' faces, strange and yet familiar,
and drinks, and games, and films that end the same old ways:
it's all as it was, but there's no way to account for
the time that passed through everyone,
too wearisome to name, or chart, or sum;
the hopes and fears of all the years
chasing a clarity that never seems to come.
Is it just hold
hold on
until the end?
Pad downstairs to the double bed
where your cousin is already softly sleeping,
and pull the covers up around your head,
and shake, and stare up at the ceiling,
and hold
on
until the end.
credits
from Technicolor Nativity,
released December 13, 2019
Harrison - guitars, percussion, casiotone (beginning), vocals.
Mac Meador - casiotone (throughout).